listen to the voice of your soul
It’s almost 15 years since I closed the front door of my house and walked out into the unknown, leaving my life and my husband behind me.
I had no clue what was in front of me or how I was going to manage on my own but I knew I had to leave. I look back at that version of me now and wonder where did she get the courage to walk out that door from?
She looks like a frightened child and I want to rush to her and hold her and tell her that that everything will be ok. Just keep trusting that whispering voice within even though you feel like your legs are about to give way.
The whispering voice that says that there is more to life than this.
The whispering voice that says that domestic bliss is not blissy, for you.
The whispering voice that says that the hunger you feel deep in your soul is real.
The whispering voice that says that you can’t fix this because nothing is broken, you have just outgrown each other, it’s time for a new life phase.
The whispering voice that says you don’t have to know the way just take this one next step. Trust me I know what to do.
In walking out that door I was choosing above all else to listen to that whispering voice even though everything felt jumbly and messy and there was no sign of a logical ‘plan’.
I’ve been walking with that voice ever since.
She continues to whisper to me. We have walked across continents together, into a new relationship, a new marriage, and a new country where I’ve made my home.
She has walked me through the tight spots within myself when all I wanted to do was contract and yet she showed me how to expand. She frequently whispers the same thing. “This way; just take this one next step.” And before I know it, something that seemed overwhelming has been traversed and it has left me transformed.
She never leads me astray but she will always guide me to the places within myself that I need to explore next. And sometimes that is hard.
There is a myth in spiritual circles that when you are ‘in flow’ that life is ‘easy breezy lemon squeezey’ and maybe for some people this is true. But for me and for many of my clients flow often means travelling a difficult path for a while so that you can meet and embody a part of your true self.
That part of you that exists beyond the story of who you are, beyond your culture, your gender, and your ‘woundings’ etc.
That part of you that is eternal and joyous and enchanted by this messy and meaningful adventure called life.
That part of you that knows that there are no wrong turns and that part of you who knows that you are in truth walking yourself home.
Over the years that whispering voice has become my guide, my mentor and my friend.
I trust that she ALWAYS has my back.
And I know in my heart of hearts that I would not be the woman I am today without her.
We have walked through many doors since we started out together and I’m quite excited to think that we will walk through many more.
Catherine x
If you need some help to listen to your own whispering voice or taking that one next step, please get in touch about a Soul Reading or a Shamanic Healing Session.